What if somebody tells you that they never liked being friends with you, because of the way you are? Won't you feel completely useless? You can't change everything about you, and be a total different person, right?
But this isn't my case. This is regarding a friend. My close friends won't hang out with me if I'm with her, and my acquaintances would try to stay away and people who don't know me would say I'm just like her.
But if you're in my shoes, what would you do? I can't abandon her and start hanging out with my other friends because this person has helped me through a lot of things. I can't simply tell her the truth because she would feel so down. And if I do nothing then the wrong impressions about me will keep going.
Sometimes I wish people would just drop it. People who knew her well. If you are annoyed, tell her off, she'd understand. It is who she is, accept the pros and cons. I know I do.
Friday, March 4, 2011
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Defeated.
I feel so defeated.
Never thought I'd say this, but now I wish I never have met you.
You may have been the person that once made me the happiest person in the world, but now I feel as if I'm the loser of the world.
Why must we met if in the end you would leave me hanging? Why must I fall for you if I was never good enough to win you? Nothing worth my time spent for you.
I would've been happier.
Never thought I'd say this, but now I wish I never have met you.
You may have been the person that once made me the happiest person in the world, but now I feel as if I'm the loser of the world.
Why must we met if in the end you would leave me hanging? Why must I fall for you if I was never good enough to win you? Nothing worth my time spent for you.
I would've been happier.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Meow.
Hazim reminded me that I still have a blog. Haha. Hm, don't know what to update about. Except that I have a very busy month. I have a test this weekend until Thursday, I've to start practicing for my performance for the dinner, have to go to the rehearsal next weekend and the real thing on the weekend after that. Also I have a Physics presentation next week, which falls on the same day as the Chemistry test. I have 4 lab reports to submit next week and a Bio assignment to submit at the end of the month.
Gilo kan asasi?
Gilo kan asasi?
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
2010 in summary (part III)
SEPTEMBER
RAYA! Raya was so much fun. As usual all of us schoolmates would take turns to visit each other's houses. But things are so much easier now since everybody can drive ;)
But we got finals coming up. I never studied harder in my entire life.
OCTOBER
Finals are over! My sem break began. And Paramore is coming to town! I went to all sorts of trouble just to get to the concert but heck, was it worth the sweat? Hells yeah, the concert was full of epicness and only epicness!
And I went to perform in a prom, and I went and forget the lyrics on stage. It was very embarrassing but looking back, I can't help myself but to laugh. Hahaha. But glad I didn't mess up completely. I mean, they still enjoyed the performance :)
NOVEMBER
Results are out. I suck for the first time in my life. The most painful thing is that I realized that this is what I have to bring to the future. And I’m pretty much screwed. But I have no choice than to just really get the move on.
But sem break was a hell of a fun. We've been fooling around in Kuantan at night, doing stupid things. I'm so gonna miss the times with my fellow Kuantanese friends when we all have to get back to college again.
And my sister got married, and I was supposed to be the happiest person in the world but.. I just got my heart broken again. He chose the other. This time it was so painful, I had to stop seeing him. I just had to say goodbye. At least for now.
DECEMBER
I let the time healed me. And it did. And we're back being best friends now. I'd be lying if I say that it doesn't hurt anymore. Of course it is. It comes once in a while but, time can heal some more, right?
Well, I guess I cannot ask for the drama to stop happening for me in this year but dear God, at least please, give me good drama this time. With a happy ending.
Happy 2011!
RAYA! Raya was so much fun. As usual all of us schoolmates would take turns to visit each other's houses. But things are so much easier now since everybody can drive ;)
But we got finals coming up. I never studied harder in my entire life.
OCTOBER
Finals are over! My sem break began. And Paramore is coming to town! I went to all sorts of trouble just to get to the concert but heck, was it worth the sweat? Hells yeah, the concert was full of epicness and only epicness!
And I went to perform in a prom, and I went and forget the lyrics on stage. It was very embarrassing but looking back, I can't help myself but to laugh. Hahaha. But glad I didn't mess up completely. I mean, they still enjoyed the performance :)
NOVEMBER
Results are out. I suck for the first time in my life. The most painful thing is that I realized that this is what I have to bring to the future. And I’m pretty much screwed. But I have no choice than to just really get the move on.
But sem break was a hell of a fun. We've been fooling around in Kuantan at night, doing stupid things. I'm so gonna miss the times with my fellow Kuantanese friends when we all have to get back to college again.
And my sister got married, and I was supposed to be the happiest person in the world but.. I just got my heart broken again. He chose the other. This time it was so painful, I had to stop seeing him. I just had to say goodbye. At least for now.
DECEMBER
I let the time healed me. And it did. And we're back being best friends now. I'd be lying if I say that it doesn't hurt anymore. Of course it is. It comes once in a while but, time can heal some more, right?
Well, I guess I cannot ask for the drama to stop happening for me in this year but dear God, at least please, give me good drama this time. With a happy ending.
Happy 2011!
Thursday, December 30, 2010
2010 in summary (part II)
MAY
Holiday almost over and I had to decide where I want to further my studies. I already had something I planned for myself from the start but my parents seems to have better ideas. I felt like everything I planned for my life just.. crushed. I was in my bad times.
I met the guy again, and turns out he is more amazing than I know. So I went ahead and tried to get to know him, and as we're getting closer, turns out he is with this friend of mine. It was a bummer, but we've become best friends.
And so I went to college for the first time in my life and tried to move on and deal with whatever stakes that may come before me. Reluctantly :-/
JUNE
18 and legal, baby. Began to get used to college life. It was World Cup season, so it was fun for a while there.
He had problems. He broke up with his girl and I was there to listen. I began to know him more, and I fell in love for the first time.
JULY
Spain won the World Cup! I met some cool people and we instantly became friends and hung out together and become close ever since. But I still couldn't manage to remember everyone's names in my class though.
I had my heart broken, but all my friends were there to help me cope :)
AUGUST
I've been slacking off in my studies. I gave up on football, and I ate a lot.
Holiday almost over and I had to decide where I want to further my studies. I already had something I planned for myself from the start but my parents seems to have better ideas. I felt like everything I planned for my life just.. crushed. I was in my bad times.
I met the guy again, and turns out he is more amazing than I know. So I went ahead and tried to get to know him, and as we're getting closer, turns out he is with this friend of mine. It was a bummer, but we've become best friends.
And so I went to college for the first time in my life and tried to move on and deal with whatever stakes that may come before me. Reluctantly :-/
JUNE
18 and legal, baby. Began to get used to college life. It was World Cup season, so it was fun for a while there.
He had problems. He broke up with his girl and I was there to listen. I began to know him more, and I fell in love for the first time.
JULY
Spain won the World Cup! I met some cool people and we instantly became friends and hung out together and become close ever since. But I still couldn't manage to remember everyone's names in my class though.
I had my heart broken, but all my friends were there to help me cope :)
AUGUST
I've been slacking off in my studies. I gave up on football, and I ate a lot.
2010 in summary (part I)
JANUARY
We finished school a couple of weeks ago. I remember Nad and I had a sleepover at Hani's place. We drank coffee at midnight, watched a gory thriller, we slept at 6am, woke up 3 hours later and then baked some cookies :)
Dad gave my very first driving lesson by getting me behind the wheel, of a pick-up truck. Then I finally meet my real official driving tutor, presenting, Mr Maniam. Short, fat, bald, smelly, racist, sleeps while we drive and has a funny laugh.
FEBRUARY
The month pretty much filled with tv marathon, going to the movies, sleepovers, driving lessons, reading books and video games.
Had a BBQ party at Ummaira's. It was kind of like a reunion of schoolmates. We had a confession game and I had to confess about my almost-boyfriend while he sat right beside me. Good thing we're both cool about it.
AND I got my license! :)
MARCH
DUN DUN DUN.. SPM results! I've been telling myself that I'd get no more than 6A's but then, alhamdulillah, I scored 8A's :) the best thing was I scored A+ for Sejarah, when I actually flunked it completely for trials. Haha.
But a new drama happened. My two best friends broke up for a mistake that I know he would regret for the rest of his life. I was so mad at him I decided to put a stop on our 5 years of friendship too, but I realized people make mistakes and the best thing to do is always being there for him.
But everything never went back to normal.
APRIL
I went for an interview for UTP. It was nice meeting Hani and meeting all her friends. The interview sucked by the way. BUT I got my dream phone. All hail the mighty Fernando the N97! It rules so hard.
And then I met somebody that I instantly turned on by.
We finished school a couple of weeks ago. I remember Nad and I had a sleepover at Hani's place. We drank coffee at midnight, watched a gory thriller, we slept at 6am, woke up 3 hours later and then baked some cookies :)
Dad gave my very first driving lesson by getting me behind the wheel, of a pick-up truck. Then I finally meet my real official driving tutor, presenting, Mr Maniam. Short, fat, bald, smelly, racist, sleeps while we drive and has a funny laugh.
FEBRUARY
The month pretty much filled with tv marathon, going to the movies, sleepovers, driving lessons, reading books and video games.
Had a BBQ party at Ummaira's. It was kind of like a reunion of schoolmates. We had a confession game and I had to confess about my almost-boyfriend while he sat right beside me. Good thing we're both cool about it.
AND I got my license! :)
MARCH
DUN DUN DUN.. SPM results! I've been telling myself that I'd get no more than 6A's but then, alhamdulillah, I scored 8A's :) the best thing was I scored A+ for Sejarah, when I actually flunked it completely for trials. Haha.
But a new drama happened. My two best friends broke up for a mistake that I know he would regret for the rest of his life. I was so mad at him I decided to put a stop on our 5 years of friendship too, but I realized people make mistakes and the best thing to do is always being there for him.
But everything never went back to normal.
APRIL
I went for an interview for UTP. It was nice meeting Hani and meeting all her friends. The interview sucked by the way. BUT I got my dream phone. All hail the mighty Fernando the N97! It rules so hard.
And then I met somebody that I instantly turned on by.
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